EXPECTATION
REALITY
WATIZZDAMININGOFDIZZ? Today is April 20, 2012. Three months ago, a girl marked April 20 2012 on her calendar with a heart sign. Why? Of course she was expecting something to happen this day! January 20, 2012 was a date. A date or 'like a date' with a guy she really like. It was then their second 'like a date'. Hours ago that day, someone texted her about a Fireworks Display to be held at their province. She was so excited to see it because she really love to see fireworks since it was so rare for her to see one. But she thought of maybe, she might experience it with the guy she really like. She awkwardly asked the guy then, "Will you accompany me to the Fireworks Display Event on April 20?" the guy replied, "SURE." The girl's face was filled with joy. She was like flying when she heard the 'sure' word. Then, she went home. She's carrying that big smile that is worthless. A money can't buy her happiness. She marked her calendar with a heart sign on April 20, 2012.
Many things happened between them. Some things changed. Some things improved (like her feelings for that guy), but still, their friendship is getting stronger. It was almost April! She never forget that special day. She always daydream about what could happen on that day. She was expecting that it will be the most unforgettable moment of her life. It will be like a fairytale. It will be like a love story that has no ending. It will be. It will be, maybe, she hoped so.
Time flies. It wasn't that easy for her to calm down while waiting for that day. But she has lose her hope because there was something bad that happened. She and the guy was talking on the phone. They had some little argument or some misunderstanding. She was in tears but the guy didn't knew. She asked the guy, "Will you still come with me to that Fireworks Display Event?" the guy replied, "I don't know." She was crying soundless and she said, "Then I'll go by my own." the guy replied, "Don't go alone. Please. It's dangerous. If you want to come, you should ask for someone to come with you." She was hurt, maybe, because she is still crying soundless. She said, "Because I thought you'd come with me. But it's okay. Are you coming alone too? Or you'll be with someone?" he said, "I'll be with someone." She cried again, but this time, she's crying like a baby. The guy asked, "Are you crying? Why are you crying?" she just laughed in disguise and said, "No I'm not. I got cold. Oh wait. I'll call someone." toot toot. She ended the call. But the pain doesn't end. She ask herself, "Why does it have to hurt this way?" Because she marked the date on her calendar! Duh!
A week after. She was freshen up by a week-long activity she attended. She's blessed. She's changed. She realized many things. She has accepted things that are impossible to happen. Things like HE<3s HER thingy. And she received a message from the guy. Actually, the guy never stopped sending some messages to her. Since the week-long activity is almost done, she replied. "How are you?" Since then, they didn't noticed that everything are back into place. April 20 is a week away. But she's not hoping her expectations to happen. She thought of going alone. Will she? NO! Because she was so loyal. Since that guy said that she can't go alone, she will not go.
The marked date with a heart on her calendar came, April 20, Friday. She texted the guy, "You take care on going to that Fireworks Display Event later! God bless you!" the guy replied, "I think I'm not going?" You know what the girl felt? SHE'S HAPPY! AND SHE DON'T KNOW WHY. She asked, "Why? I thought you'll be coming with someone?" The guy replied, "I'm not sure, I feel so tired." She was then relaxed. She looked at the heart sign mark on her calendar and said, "Will you still happen?"
It's almost night. Since the guy decided not to come, she didn't come too. She received a message on her phone, "Hey. I'll go to the Fireworks Display Event. I'm sorry I didn't come with you." She replied, "It's okay. You take care. God Bless! Tell me how it feels later." Then a tear drops. Although she didn't know who's with him. If it is some of his friends or a girl, she just assumed. Maybe someone held his hands while watching it. Maybe They were so happy watching it together. All her expectations happened, maybe, to him, but with other girl. Well, she just assumed that. She didn't really know who's with him. And now, she's sitting alone, typing this EPIC story while watching "Walang Hanggan" and searching some fireworks video on Youtube just to let herself be happy, just for once.
Maybe you wouldn't understand how she feels right now, but let me tell you, she was not really hurt. She just expected some things that didn't really happen. And honestly, she knew this would happen. One thing for sure, she was not crying while typing this. She's smiling right now. :)
And she would like to thank you for reading this. And hey! There are still FIREWORKS on NEW YEAR'S EVE. :))) She just have to patiently wait.
God bless!
